Beyond those myriad eyes

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

     woot! it has been such a long time for not updating up new entry in my blog. well you know, being a SPM's candidate was quite legit. my mind was scattered away and couldnt pin point to the ones that only matter.

     in this entry, im really excited to share a lil bit about my toughest SEM during my high school life at MRSM Jeli. I started to begin writing again once I found this Biology's paper when I was tidying up the mess of papers. It was lots of them. Im not going to burn them up. Recycling them will be better in order to keep our lofty environment yo!



     This paper reminisced me about my very first time for me to fail in examinations. For serious, during that night, I cried pails of tears, I called my mom via phone and told her about my failure in Biology. My mom said, never mind I do believe in you as you already put more efforts.

     SERIUS. AKU FRAGILE! BROKEN!

     She didnt know how I spent up my SEMII. I took responsibility as President and I was busy as hell. I was busy by doing silly duties. I needed to help other organistions. I needed to help them too and my organisation was inorganised. and finally, all the organisations became real chaos. my demeanour? I almost failed too.

     Started from that moment, I started to sleep in the classroom because I was real fatigue. I skipped from performing prayers at the surau in order to be in the hostel. How silly I used to be. I was so regret for doing so. I was influenced by my used-to-be-close-friend to do so. but, it actually was my fault for being a pig-headed as well because I didnt do it without using my brain.

     From that night, after I called my mom, I realised, it seemed like i found my own shine to rise. I do believe in miracle and efforts. Not the word so called 'gifted'. I know it's exist among us at MRSM.

     Days passed by, I asked several teachers that I  badly wanted to resign. But, they didnt even support me. I asked my friends too, seeked opinions from them, it turned out that they told me that, if I resigned, it was still early and you would look such a coward. 

     I had no choice and I slowly avoided myself from taking part in PRS organisation. But it was not overall. It looked so obvious that I made quite a distance as my friends started to yell at me in the form of jokes. PRS TAK BERGUNA, BUKAN PRES, PEROSAK RAKAN SEBAYA , AND SO MANY NEGATIVES STATEMENTS. It was easy for them to say. If they were in my shoes, they would feel what I  suffered with. I am not a smartass. I am such a slow-learner. My mind cannot even absorb everything in a  nick of time.

     In my stupendous life, academic is everything. I guess, yours too. Academic is a priority for me to excel in the future. In the deep of my heart, I said to myself, why I have to live in this negative environment? why i have been surrounded with narrow-minded people? why people only want to judge without looking in the other side? why? Lots of questions shot into my mind. I was buffled. I couldnt let myself to be positive even a bit. I received lots of critisms in every side. What a sad life!

     Trembling and fighting back tears of grieving and sadness, I built up new plans. So every night before I closed my eyes, every evening after preps, I would read bios until I got used to it. I did a lot of exercises. Not to mention, i asked extra exercises with my biology's teacher. I would stay in the classroom every weekend too. at that time, everyone was exhilirated and laugh like hell but i was studying. See, how lifeless my life is.

     Until it came a day, I seated for bios' examination. i was mortified. my mind was full of thought that, what if I fail again? 

     My heart was pounded like a speeding bullet. No lies! Feeling like I was about to jump from real-high tower. Jolts of electricity rushed all over my body. Adrenaline gushed down my veins.

and all the praises to Him.
I did it!

     After about a week, my teacher met me and she said, Faris, Well done! Damn, I did it for real. And she handed me a box of chocolates. 



     To be frank, I scored A for finals in 2016. I cried a river. Nobody knew how I felt and she once said, the value of these chocolates are not the same as my effort. Mine is priceless! 

SERIUS! SEKALI LAGI AKU FRAGILE.!!

    I was glad. That was one of the moments that will be never fade in my cerebrum. A place where I can keep a million of memories.

     Thanks for those who help me through ups and downs. Im really appreciate you guys for everything. Salute! success will never be felt without a help of people around us.

     Before i wrap up my entry, let me remind you of something, never ever stop whenever youre at the bottom. Push yourself until the limit and prove that, as human being, you can do as well. Gifted is just a title. even though youre not labelled as a gifted but you have something that they dont, you have efforts. You worth it! You spend more time to fix yours, cover up your weaknesses. You can explore and find yourself even better. You get to know who you are. Failure is a common thing that homo sapien will feel. Never ever lose your hope and believe in yourself, just fight until out of your lung. Just push yourself until it comes to your last breath. Fi sabilillah! Giving up, it is just a word that will bring you down. Once you try to apply it, you will be regret for the rest of your life. if you think that you are the best, so just dont think that the world is a place to rest. You will comfort soon at there, HEAVEN! Yes, I can, You can, We can!

     



SIVIK : Warisan Budaya Malaysia

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

     Happy Independence Day, Malaysians!
So, im going to complete up my last task about 'Sivik Dan Kewarganegaraan' and actually this entry is all about one of the chapters in this lesson. Since im the only one who has blogger's account, so im the ONLY VICTIM to make sure all the content about the culture of Malaysia is in this blog! *i need to type it as well

Let's get started..

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Malaysia merupakan salah satu negara yang mempunyai rakyat yang berbilang kaum serta budaya dan adat resam yang sungguh unik. Kaum yang terbesar ialah kaum Melayu, Cina dan India. Kaum ini memberikan kesan positif kepada pelancong yang mana akan turut kagum akan keunikan dan kehebatan yang melengkapkan lagi negara Malaysia.


[ MAKA NIKMAT MANAKAH YANG KAMU DUSTAKAN ]


INILAH LELAKI MELAYU YANG DIGEMBAR-GEMBURKAN ITU!!

Pakaian :
baju melayu, kebaya, kurung songkok, kain pelikat..
Makanan : laksa, kuih koci, buah melaka, kuih lapis, nasi lemak..
Permainan : congkak, gasing, wau..
Alat muzik : kompanggongrebanagambus..
Perayaan : Hari Raya Aidrilfitri(Puasa), Hari Raya Haji
Tarian : tarian keris, tarian inai, tarian Piring, tarian lilin..
Kepercayaan : Agama Islam
Bahasa : Bahasa Melayu

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Pakaian : Hanfu (semasa pergerakan Hanfu Malaysia dilangsungkan pada tahun 2007), Cheongsam, Sam Fu..
Suku kaum : Teochew, Hakka, Hokkien..
Makanan : Kuih bakul, kuih bulan, pulut nasi, dimsum.
Permainan : catur cina
Alat muzik : gitar bulan, dram,
Perayaan : Tahun Baru Cina, Chap Goh Mei, Pesta Kuih Bulan
Tarian : Tarian kipas, tarian singa, tarian payung..
Kepercayaan : Agama Buddha, Taoisme, Kristian
Bahasa : Mandarin, Hokkien, Hakka, Kantonis, Teochew..

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Pakaian : Sari, serban, kurta, dhoti, sarung..
Makanan : tosai, idli, muruku, apam, kesari, ladu,
Permainan  : kaudi 
Alat muzik : veena, sitar, ukulele, sapei..
Perayaan : Hari Deepavali, Thaipusam, Ponggal, Vaigunda Ekadashi, Christmas, Onam, Hari Raya
Tarian : tarian serimpi, Shobana Chanarakumar, Bharata Natyam
Kepercayaan : Agama Hindu, Kristian, Islam
Bahasa : Bahasa Telugu, Tamil, Hindi, dan Malayalam


Malaysia masih mempunyai ramai etnik yang menjadikan keunikan itu lebih terserlah. Dalam meniti arus Transformasi Nasional 50, masyarakat konvensional seyogia mengekalkan budaya dan adat resam supaya masih kekal hingga ke anak cucu.

Untuk mengetahui keunikan ini dengan lebih lanjut, ha sila tekan dekat sini ye!

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So, we are done. Happy reading tho! As Malaysians, we have to ensure that our future granchildren will feel it. Lets put aside our ego as we must think for them too. Knowing the culture through reading is not the same as seeing in front of their eyes. We can see the difference from now! 

P/s: saya yakin anda saya positif ketika membaca entri ini


EID ; Here We Go!

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

     Nah! today's fifth day of eid and im really passionate to pour in my super excited during my eid! well you know, im a spm candidate and im still enjoying my life even though it has been less than 40 days before i sit for my trial. it is so close and i still dont complete my homework. urgh! (RIP dearself). before i continue doing my homeworks, let me share to you something about my eid. (we dont need homework for eid, all we need is enjoy the days)


my baju melayu gaiss
     
     im wearing light blue baju melayu, gold samping and edwin sneaker. too hipster? no. this year is a kind of boring hari raya as our family was incompleted. i mean, my sister didnt come home as she had to work and she didnt have a chance to come home. Pity! 
outfit of the day uolss

     way to go, Faris. so the second day, i went to negeri sembilan. we made some suprise to our sister as she didnt know that we will be there. on that day, i wore a simple t-shirt with the grey colour, and edwin grey sneaker. very simple? so you dont have to trouble yourself when it comes a time to wear something nice on you. just be simple and you will look super perfect. i brought up my books too as i planned to complete my homeworks. but, i didnt do at all. NICE!


grey again? cause i love it

let's go to ZeMart. on the third day, we went there. i bought a straight cut jeans and earphones. i broke tho. i never knew that i will get everything from there. i mean, you can just fulfill your wishes when you go there as they have everything you need. with just two simple things, i had spent about rm100. why so expensive but never mind, i used my duit raya and i felt so happy to own that. lepasni serius tak nak beli dah. *cry*

lets go home
i wore 'baju kemeja biru', brown straight cut jeans and blue jeans sneaker. too hipster? no. just simple and steady kan? so the forth day was my last day at negeri sembilan, i brought up my homeworks which didnt do at all. so sad. i just planned again to do my homeworks at home. may the force be with me ;'(

but things didnt happen as planned.
i slept through the day.

today is the day where i start to finish up my homeworks but.. i feel so sleepy. i still look for good vibes and be positive.

finally, i start to realise that my trial is real close. kenapalah baru rasa menyesal. *damn* 

but everything went well. believe that whatever you do, just do for Him. 

P/s: nak cantik? nak hensem? you dont need to wear something expensive just because want to look better, all you need is self-confidence.

SEGMEN; Bloglist Haslina 2017

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

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since it has been  long time, i am really pleasure to tag ; Aqilah Wardah, Mulut Payau , Aufa

with just simple rules and done! HURRY UP before it's too late.
good luck!




It has been a long time

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

     It has been almost 5 months for not posting anything in my blog. Oh well, dah bersawang dah. Since im form student and im gonna sit for SPM this year, actually i have no time to play with this thing. For example, im not so active on instagram, twitter and whatsapp.

    It turns out when i have to complete everything in a short period of time. Plus, I stay in MRSM Jeli and i rarely play up with my smartphone. I only use my precious Alcatel when it comes to listening some musics. Well, i wanna release my tension.

    So, during this school holiday, all i can do is trying to have a self-study. Spm is around the corner guys. Dont you realise it? Duh! Im so tired then. 

     Im still working on science stream. Well, physics is not kind of easy stuff. I have to remember the concept. Then, when it comes to answering some questions, it feels like ive been doomed. Because i dont know what the answer is. then, i forget the concept again. So i reread the book then i get confused.

    After this holiday, we will come up with the pointer. Duh, im so nervous. I dont know what level i am. The finals was so hard as hell. i try to be more better but what the hell the questions are. 

    past is past and i can do nothing to fix it. all i can do is hoping that it will be better as i wish. happy ramadhan to all of you and wish the dreams come true. Be loyal and be faithful to Allah. Fix ourselves for the future.

P/s: Never lose hope. Allah knows the best.